Monday, May 25, 2015

the day I thought was my last *chills*

May 23, 2015

Everybody wants a splashing and tanning summer. Who wouldn't say yes to a one day free trip to a wonderful beach club? So, that's basically how this story would start.

 My good friend, Glenn *hi beybs!* is celebrating his 19th birthday at a beach club on the north which is a 3-4 hour drive. I was very much excited for the new adventure that I just prepared my things in the morning lol. Anyways, we had a great time there; the pool is nice, the view of the sea is wonderful and the atmosphere is full of elegance.We were the kids who escaped to paradise that day. So you see, I was having the best summer-ender. However, because of certain ideas coming from my awesome yet trouble-magnet brain, I stayed at one of my friend's house, Nicole's (it was an hour away from that beach club)  together with another friend, Tatine. I called my mom saying we were staying there. I didnt emphasized who the "we" are and where the "there" is. And she thought we all are staying there at the beach club. THAT WAS A MAJOR LIE. I felt guilty (a little). It's been awhile since I last did a major lie. So that was it, I lied. But I didnt realize how much trouble was waiting for me that time. 




May 24, 2015


We planned to catch a sight of the sunrise but well, you know what happened. Hahaha The sun is already awake at 5:30 am. HOW COULD IT BE SO EARLY? So we just spent another morning of laughing and talking about random things and random people *winks. 


Nicole brought us to this amazing cold spring near their area. The best part of it is that it's FREE!!!

It's so cool, there were mini waterfalls and the water is verrryy brrrrrr cold. A lot of people went that day because it was Sunday. It was Sunday and I was out there enjoying through a lie. ARGGHHHH

Anyways, just as I thought I had the best summer getaway, I checked on my phone just to see my mom's 13 missed calls and one heart-stopping message. DAMMMMMMMMNNNNN My life's over!!! She called another time to Tatine and I answered it.


ALL THE SHT WORDS ARE SAID AND I KNEW ILL BE DEAD IN A FEW HOURS.

And so, we went home. Worried. I found out she's been calling all my friend since I didnt answer my phone and that was how she knew. I was thinking of another major alibi aka another lie but then I knew it will make it worse. I knew then I got no choice but to face whatever my mom got there  since it was really my fault. Im already preparing myself, my ass most especially, for the ass-beating scene or for the phone-less, internet-less, travel-less days. All I got there is my guilty self and oh, there's  this man up there.

I prayed.

I didnt ask to be saved from whatever punishment is waiting but I was praying for strength to face it. I asked him to let myself be strong, strong enough to accept the fact that this wouldnt happen if I told the truth. I have thoughts of maybe if I didn't come, I should have been at home, worry-less, just chilling but it was too late.

I got home. Mom was not there yet. She was out at our neighbor's. She didnt arrive for the next five hours. It was five hours of agony not to mention that my sisters are not even helping.

She came. And the conversation went like:

Mom: What you did is not good.
Me: I know.

She went to their room, and played with the tab. That was it. THE  HOURS OF WORRYING AND STRESSING MY HEART OUT ENDED LIKE THAT. JUST.LIKE.THAT.

Im not complaining here, okay, Im just saying that wow You're the man, Lord. I knew it was because of you. It was because I chose not to lie again (unlike before) . I chose to face it. I trusted You for my strength. And I thank You. :>


It was absolutely a hell kind of a trip. As much as I hate parts of it, I love it as a whole. I love that even after all, it was still a happy vacation. The lie, which was the worst thing; ever, was actually the key for the good things.  If it wasnt for it, I would never have seen the great views and the cold spring. If it wasnt for it, I wouldnt realize (finally) that lying is dangerous. It could kill you by the worries and stress. Hahaha  And most of all, if I didnt lie, I have no story to tell right now.









"You'll never have anything to laugh about when you grow old if you obey all the rules" *winks

til the next trouble ...



Thursday, May 21, 2015

blue could mean happy too



May 19, 2015

For the first time, Ive sailed alone!!! Actually, not totally alone but you know, no family, no mom, just me with a bunch of strangers. I enjoyed the whole 2 hours, I swear I didnt sleep, I admired the ocean every.single.second. 
When my mom told me, I had to go home alone, I was honestly scared but thrilled at the same time. I was thinking if ever the boat would go dive itself in the sea (thank God it didnt), will I survive swimming home or will I be stuck in an island with snakes and monkeys and eat coconut my whole life or will I be ... Anyways, Im here! At home, using Flipper, on my lovely my pjs, very alive.  So the entire trip was silent, of course, I know no one, but inside, my thoughts are rock n rollin. \m/ I was watching the ocean turning from sky blue, to clear green to blue and into the deepest blue. Im glad I was placed on the upper  side of the boat where the view is very open and the wind is refreshingly cool. The entire moment I was there, I forgot all my scares and I realized this one's not worth fearing at all. Although we cant avoid accidents but I think, if I died that moment, I would die admiring the great view. 

However, the best part and the highlight of my entire sailing adventure is *drumrolls* the DOLPHINS!!! Yes, the DOLPHINS!!! There were three of them and they were like having a group getaway Lol. I cant believe Ive seen them, finally. Happiness level went to 1000% That's the highest record so far. 


I guess my summer isnt plain at all. I have stories to tell and I have few more days to gather more stories. This, actually is a great summer, no sarcasm added. *winks




Wednesday, May 20, 2015

hello little screen

okay so here's the thing,

my dad sent a package a month ago and then it arrived while I was in a wonderful vacation at my cousin's. I got a netbook and a phone. It is actually pretty cool that I could bring this anywhere and I could put in my bag along with my notebook, it's just that little little little screen over here is ummm eye bleeding. Anyways, I was thinking for days what would be the name of this little fella. hmmm. I was thinking of a Dolphie? or Dolph since I saw some DOLPHINS (!!!) btw on my way home, ahh such lovely creatures. However, after million minutes of scanning through the inner depths of my awesome brain, I came up with Flipper. Yes, the dolphin :D Perfect, isnt it? 

So, hi Flipper. Welcome to the world of overflowing awesomeness aka  my blog, :>







Sunday, May 10, 2015

those random emo nights



I like your eyes. No, I love them.
I love the them for looking at me like Im the only thing existing.
 Like I'm the very book they were looking for in a bookstore. 
Like they were afraid I might  disappear in a snap and you want to savour every sight of me.




I love your hands, too, left and right.
I love them for letting me feel safe every time I cross the road
For writing the letters you were giving me
For patiently tying my hair when I ask you to

photo from google
photo from google

I love your arms. They're my favorite.
I love them for wrapping themselves around me when Im upset.
Or when I fail in a test 
and when I cry over stupid little things.


Most of all, I love your heart. 
I love it for beating so fast when I hug you
or when I say I love you
I love it for being patient in waiting for me
for caring still even after love wounded it 



I love your heart for letting  your eyes,
your hands, your arms
do those things for me.


Unexpectedly



" i just dont know oh were we ever meant to be
suddenly you caught me so off guard
we fell in love so unexpectedly  "


wow. Cant believe I'm stuck with this song AT 1 AM!

Romantic. Charming. Magical. 

This song is love itself.


never be a little star

photo from google

little star, little star
dont dream of being too far
you will be lost and wont be seen 
your life is where you are
up in the sky shining for others


little star, little star
dont sing too loud
you will lost your voice and will never be heard
your melody is unknown
just whisper and let the wind blow it


little star, little star
dont fall down there
you will fade and will never shine again
your light must stay here above
let others admire your twinkling


and so the little star lived its whole life up in the sky .

shining

whispering

... dreaming