the blue moon mainstream

photo from google

My sole intention of going home as fast as possible changed swiftly with a glance of your sleeping face. All I wanted was to be in a comfortable, fast trip and to finally have my breakfast which would become "'brunch" as soon as I arrive. You got your world in your music plus you have the best view in the window and I was stuck in the middle of you and another stranger. I put on my earphones (music-less) and attempted to created my own world too. But I couldn't stand the silence and the awkward brushing of skins and so I thought of reading. Unluckily, I didnt bring any, (gosh, how could I?) but then luckily, too, I got ebooks (hooray) and then I read few chapters until the world started moving. 

I took a glance of your face in the mirror and boom, youre sleeping. Hahahaha I studied your face, (in the mirror) which is a risk of an awkward scene if you had suddenly open your eyes but luckily you didnt. You got good brows I think, I dont really know what proper adjectives to use in describing people physically. Youre clean for a guy and that's for a second I thought maybe youre gay? But then I noticed a swaggyyy dudeey cap on top of your bag so I assumed youre not. 

You know what's the highlight?  Your scent. Haha

The moment I first step there, you're unfamiliar yet ohhh fragrance welcomed me. What a welcome! hahaha 

And the best part is, you left some on my arm. Lol

At home, I checked if my body wash/perfume lasted but I smelled a now familiar scent on my left arm. 

I guess it was from your uniform. 

Anyways, it was great trip and I went home and had my meal. I know this thing could happen everyday or maybe you attract bunch of other humans with your wonderful odor but I just want to say that tho its a mainstream thing, it happened on a blue moon day which I find interestingly special.

til I see you again, not friend.. yet. :)

ps: sorry for moving too much, I almost peed earlier ugh

Confused hopes

I dont know why I was looking forward to see the sun when I know its not shining for me anymore.
the same thrilled butterflies rejoiced in that thought. I was ready to see it, I was ready to smile a happy smile, not the awkward one. I wanted to see how is it. After long years of hiding in the dark realms of "looking happy" I am now certain I can face it. I am brave now. So, I waited in patience. I was holding a popcorn and some shake. I walked back and forth in place. It was dark and the road is crowded, there are just too many people but I know that Ill see it . I didnt need eyes that moment, my heart recognizes it. I waited and waited.

It came...


but I never saw it.

I dont know what would that mean. I said Im ready and I am brave now. How come I didnt see it?

Everything is confusing.

The night ended and the day has come. Im still stuck in the darkness. Courage left me and the butterflies were buried alive.


Im still here, you know.

Ill wait til I feel brave again. And when that happens, maybe this time,  I'll see it.

I will not be confused anymore.

and when I see it, I'll smile the happy smile...




while holding a popcorn and shake.