Where art thou, 2-year-ago self? *sobs

#1 Note to self:

Love others even if they're unlovable because God loved you without questioning you being worthy of it.

the day we had our first Kimchi

It was okay.

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Well, not really. 

Let's start first with how we ended up in somewhat a Korean fastfood. 

It was Friday. Nikko and Aaron were waiting in the dorm for our other high school friends who will be going home with us (we always do that every Friday)  and then it turned out no one was coming which leaves only the three of us to go home. And then my mom called asking if I will be coming with her since she's in the city, too but I said no and asked for food instead. 

We met inside that fast food where she was already eating along with my aunt and her husband. At first, she just gave me money so we could buy our own food but then she changed her mind and let us sit with them. 

The food looks odd but I gave it a shot and so we ordered the same food. It was a rice burger. And it tastes... okay. 

Again, not really.

and that was when we (or I) decided to order Kimchi because it looks soooooo good on TV. I remembered Jan Di and Jun Pyo eating it together and it was really enticing. 

Three of us decided to take a spoonful at the same time to be fair haha. At firstm, I only tasted the lettuce which I love but then the weird spicy flavor started to dominate in my mouth asdsdsfgfjhgjh

really gross, *no offense meant to people who loves them tho 

We all do stupid mistakes at any time of our lives and I guess this is one of them. But this one happened for a purpose- an experiece where we learned that we could never live in Korea. Lol

But then again, taste is subjective so I suggest you go try it yourself.


So that was it, the day we had our first Kimchi ...

and probably our last. ;p

stupid,

PAW Sem-ender

"GOD'S NOT DEAD. HES SURELY ALIVE

HE IS LIVING ON THE INSIDE 

ROARING LIKE A LION"

Woohooo!!!Another sem of praising and worship has ended and I should say this one has been the most memorable... so far.

But first, let me introduce to you my PAW family.

PAW means Prayer Adoration and Worship.  And the place we're attending is called PAW University. This is a Christian fellowship that I joined almost 2 years ago every Wednesday night. 

It was funny to think now how my friend, Fayie, invited us ( me and my other two friends) to this fellowship back then and she used the term "youth jam." Clueless as we are, we thought it was just  somewhat like a concert of Hillsongs and we thought like "Let's just attend and leave if we do not like it." 

So we went there, unprepared at all, wearing jogging pants and shirts and smelling like barbecue because that's what we had for dinner and when we arrived there..

"WELCOME TO PAW UNIVERSITY!!!! *drumrolls!!!*"

OH MY GOD 

WHOA

WHAT IS THIS?

I admit I was very surprised to what welcomed me in the place. I never had an experience with youth camps and fellowships before so this was really new to me. It was a good surprise though and Im thankful that from that day on, I had a new family- a family that Jesus Himself made for me.

photos from PAW Official

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Last October 21, 2015, we had our last PAW NYT for this sem and it was a real blaaaaaaast!

It was, like every other night, a wonderful experience to praise and worship our one true and living God. We had dinner instead of snacks and we had an extended bond after.

Usually PAW Nyt ends at 10-11 pm but that time it ended at 12 and right after, we went to Stellar for a movie. There were almost thirty of us and the rest went home for some personal reasons. The movie lasted for almost two hours and right after that, we stayed at the front stairs of VCMC. We just stayed there and played mind-trick games and charades. 

We stayed there until 6 am. LOL. 

We had morning snacks at a nearby bakeshop and stayed a little while again.

I arrived at the dorm with my friend/dormmate and a PAWNyter too at around 7:30 am. NO SLEEP AT ALL. LOL

Recalling it all now made me realize how amazing God's ways are. Who would ever thought these people from different and far places would cross ways with me and even become my friends? 

Like I always say,  IKAW NA JUD LORD.

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,

    neither are your ways my ways,”

declares the Lord.

9 

“As the heavens are higher than the earth,

    so are my ways higher than your ways

    and my thoughts than your thoughts.

Isaiah 55:8-9

Thank You for my PAW Family. Thank You for being who and what You are, Lord.

Forever grateful,

Doodskie the dude

It's been a long time that I havent written anything. It makes me sad that I have nothing to pour out when I just want to share something, anything. It sounds crazy but whenever I attempt to start moving my pen, I end up blank-minded. 

PLEASE HELP ME.

behind the scene scenes :>

This is a late post but I just wanna share how crazy the filming went. I've experienced all the moods in one setting- from alive to drained to stressed to pissed to slightly happy to confused but at the end of the day, we share the same goal of finishing the film no matter what. No matter what the weather is and no matter how far we need to walk for our location. Thinking about it now makes me overwhelmed about how we finished it after all the non-meeting schedules and of course, school. Although we did not bring home the major awards, we already had the prize that bonds us together - friendship. 

Here's to more films to make and more friendships to build. 😁

have a kitkat bruh

It's when you have someone to walk around the neighborhood and have random life talks that you realize you got a friendship that's for keeps. 

Tonight, my friend slash neighbor visited. We watched few episodes of How I Met Your Mother and then decided to take a walk around the nearby village. It was funny realizing that we've been friends since we were grade schoolers and now that were on college, not even a hint of maturity can be observed. Lol Time is really  flying so fast we could hardly cope up. We remembered having childish fights with some neighbors and how we prepare our squad into any confrontations. Hahaha 

Also, we reminisce the holidays weve been together since we were clueless carolers. Christmas always gives me a good memory and that is why I could never forget how we celebrate Christmas each year. It has been a tradition for us to stay up past 12 am and then talk til we get sleepy. It has been me, him and another friend of ours. Sadly this year, Rhea, that other friend of ours, is on a mission (part of her religion) and the celebration wouldn' be the same. Few of our close friends have gone to different places too because duh life demands it. It may sound dramatic but it pains me thinking about the future where people who has been a very close company suddenly needs to leave. I mean, thinking about the years of growing up together and the marks they leave in your life, it is kinda hard to face the reality that nothing stays as it is. Even the people you thought would be there for the rest of your life also has a path to take and that may possibly be different from the path you are taking. Life is freaking unpredictable. 

This long talk lasted for like hours but I felt my body coming back to senses. I was thankful that it made me realize how precious it is to spend time with the people you cherish. We are all busy with all the different demands of life but it wouldnt hurt to spend some quality time. After all, what matters in the end is not the wealth, job, power, fame but  the people who shape up and color your life. 

Take a break sometimes. 

the blue moon mainstream

photo from google

My sole intention of going home as fast as possible changed swiftly with a glance of your sleeping face. All I wanted was to be in a comfortable, fast trip and to finally have my breakfast which would become "'brunch" as soon as I arrive. You got your world in your music plus you have the best view in the window and I was stuck in the middle of you and another stranger. I put on my earphones (music-less) and attempted to created my own world too. But I couldn't stand the silence and the awkward brushing of skins and so I thought of reading. Unluckily, I didnt bring any, (gosh, how could I?) but then luckily, too, I got ebooks (hooray) and then I read few chapters until the world started moving. 

I took a glance of your face in the mirror and boom, youre sleeping. Hahahaha I studied your face, (in the mirror) which is a risk of an awkward scene if you had suddenly open your eyes but luckily you didnt. You got good brows I think, I dont really know what proper adjectives to use in describing people physically. Youre clean for a guy and that's for a second I thought maybe youre gay? But then I noticed a swaggyyy dudeey cap on top of your bag so I assumed youre not. 

You know what's the highlight?  Your scent. Haha

The moment I first step there, you're unfamiliar yet ohhh fragrance welcomed me. What a welcome! hahaha 

And the best part is, you left some on my arm. Lol

At home, I checked if my body wash/perfume lasted but I smelled a now familiar scent on my left arm. 

I guess it was from your uniform. 

Anyways, it was great trip and I went home and had my meal. I know this thing could happen everyday or maybe you attract bunch of other humans with your wonderful odor but I just want to say that tho its a mainstream thing, it happened on a blue moon day which I find interestingly special.

til I see you again, not friend.. yet. :)

ps: sorry for moving too much, I almost peed earlier ugh

Confused hopes

I dont know why I was looking forward to see the sun when I know its not shining for me anymore.
the same thrilled butterflies rejoiced in that thought. I was ready to see it, I was ready to smile a happy smile, not the awkward one. I wanted to see how is it. After long years of hiding in the dark realms of "looking happy" I am now certain I can face it. I am brave now. So, I waited in patience. I was holding a popcorn and some shake. I walked back and forth in place. It was dark and the road is crowded, there are just too many people but I know that Ill see it . I didnt need eyes that moment, my heart recognizes it. I waited and waited.

It came...


but I never saw it.

I dont know what would that mean. I said Im ready and I am brave now. How come I didnt see it?

Everything is confusing.

The night ended and the day has come. Im still stuck in the darkness. Courage left me and the butterflies were buried alive.


Im still here, you know.

Ill wait til I feel brave again. And when that happens, maybe this time,  I'll see it.

I will not be confused anymore.

and when I see it, I'll smile the happy smile...




while holding a popcorn and shake.